Enodia of the Keys

My life is a complete 180° from where it was a year ago. A year ago, my long-term live in relationship imploded/exploded and resulted in police action and me having to move within a month. Which I believe I’ve touched on before. What I didn’t touch on is how Important and essential Community is when you are struggling. This last year has been a year of complete and total change for me. From the inside out. When January began, I had a New Years that I don’t quite remember, but nonetheless ended up being incredibly eye-opening into seeing how far my then-current patterns and behaviours had taken me from my intended path. As an unexpected benefit of my “domestic violence” call to the police, (that’s still a strange phrase to be associated with), I was privileged enough to be able to have access to weekly therapy. Which I have gone to consistently. Without therapy I would not have been able to begin the process of unraveling and unpeeling a lot of the damage done in my last relati...

Early August I'm sitting at the train station waiting on the train that will take me to Connecticut. My Initiation into the Priestesshood will be held there. At first, I felt like it was a given that my partner (not the person I began this journey with - for good reason) would be there. But the last 12 hours have called that into question. He kissed me goodbye and he sent me off with some wisdom: "be strong, and rise."  I'm alone. With myself. And my books. But not my real books. My Kindle type books. And I am anxious. I wasn't feeling very anxious the last few days, but now - very much so. I'm now in Connecticut. A former covenmate/good friend met me at the station and I'm settling into my hotel room. It's on the first floor and there is a door that opens up to the outside. So I've got the glass open and the screen closed. Gorgeous breeze. I'm a bit calmer but still anxious. I don't do well with time to myself. I had to take a Benedry...

I’m sure we’re all in different places right now. Some of us are unemployed, wondering when we may be FINALLY able to get through to the UI system (which in many states, is running on COBOL, REALLY?!); some of us are on the front lines in the emergency services and medical fields (which should be more appreciated and paid better than it is), and some of us are unable to stay home and protect ourselves because of their employers or our stores are considered “essential.” And unfortunately, some of us are grieving: mourning the loss of loved ones, either from COVID-19 or other unfortunate circumstances. I see you, I hear you. I cannot imagine the grief and pain that you’re going through, unable to mourn in the traditional ways. Know though, that your honored and loved Dead will be okay. Truly. If (the) God/s are all mighty - then certainly they must have provisions in place for this as well. This is a time of incredible uncertainty and fear for all of us - regardless of our situation. W...