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Opening Doors... and Stepping Through Them

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I wrote this before our Sacred Space trip, but in my distracted brain I forgot to post it. The sentiment still stands - take your leaps and take your chances. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Husband and I have been going through a period of metamorphosis. We're moving homes to a place (still in NYC) that is better suited for us and the process has been... evocative. It isn't our planned final domicile, but it is home for the next few years while we both tie up some loose ends.  With this switch, we've been afforded quite a bit of opportunity. And sometimes - that's intimidating. I've noticed that we sometimes have this loop in our minds - "oh, I can't do X because I don't have (insert lack here - time/money/space)." And we tell ourselves these "excuses" to give ourselves a "reason" not to make changes for the better.  This shift in home is the start of many opportunities for

Doing the Work - Sacred Space 2024 - Recap

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First I would like to express my sincere and profound gratitude to the Board Members of Sacred Space. Thank you for all of the unpaid and difficult work that you do - each and every year. The community that you have built is incomparable and an inspiration to all. Moving into a new space is not without its challenges, and managing presenters' issues and you all handled them all with grace and aplomb. Thank you.  Gathering Courage After watching my amazing husband present these last few years, I had the desire to teach at the Conference and be of service as well. That little voice in my head though, "these people are all "Big Names," they have reputations and books and scads of other qualities that you don't have. You don't measure up."    Last year at SSC, I had the pleasure of supporting my HPS, Courtney Weber, in her classes, including the one that she taught on Hekate. During one of our chats, I had been musing how I'd love to teach there

When the Gods Force You to Stretch - Sacred Space/Between the Worlds 2023

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I'm writing this a few days after husband and I have returned from Sacred Space/Between the Worlds 2023 . I had thoughts and expectations about how the weekend would go, like you do, but as frequently happens - the Gods had other plans. First off, I want to give thanks for the simple opportunity to be together with like minded witches, wizards, magicians, Masons, and everyone in between. The past few years have been a time of great uncertainty and difficulty and I am thankful EVERY DAY that my beloved and I made it through fairly unscathed. I saw people dear to us that we haven't seen in a long time, got to meet others who are cherished, and was able to watch and learn to see how people interact. Our Pagan/Esoteric community is precious, and I treasure it. What the Board has created at Sacred Space - bringing together so many different people from different traditions, it is unheard of, and is something to be lauded. The fact that the Conference is dedicated to both Athene and

Daily Practice

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Full disclosure - daily practice has always been something that I have struggled with. I go through periods of intense structured devotion, and then things loosen up and then life happens, the practice becomes hodgepodge and the cycle begins again.   When I was younger - I thought this made me "bad Pagan." I thought that it had some sort of bearing on my love, reverence and devotion that I have to the Theoi. It doesn't.   In my opinion - your devotion does not have to be something set. It doesn't have to be something that you do every day at a certain time - thought that does have tangible benefits to developing a relationship with your chosen Deities.  As long as you carry the love of the Gods, their principles, and act in the ways befitting someone of your faith - then you're showing your devotion.  That being said - the summer vacation (I teach in my mundane life) has allowed me to develop a set practice with the free(r) time that I have. I look forward to

When You Feel You're Off Course

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My fiance and I recently went public with our engagement (May 1). And we could NOT be more thankful and grateful for the love and support that people are showing us. And that had me thinking about - "How did I get here?" In the last 8 years, I've moved in the winter (twice) after being kicked out of long-term cohabitation situations. I've recovered (mostly) from the effects of two car horrific accidents that caused permanent damage, serious abdominal surgery, and the mental toil/toll of getting out of two long-term emotionally/mentally abusive relationships. I also managed to get my Masters degree while working full time (sometimes two and three jobs) and completed a 4 year structured Votary program in my Witchcraft/Pagan tradition that included uncomfortable self-examination, rigorous academic study, community service, and a lot of hard work... among other things. I have a friend who is going through an unimaginably tough time right now and they asked me, "

Invocation to Hekate for Change

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I debated posting this as the current revolutionary actions, aren't about me. As a white woman, right now, my job is to speak up when it would be helpful to BIPOC, but for the most part - listen and shut up.  But if someone can use this and it would be helpful - take it, use it, and be well. Hekate, Propylaia - During this time of Decision We stand before Your Gate. The choice is ours. It must be made for each individual. Hekate, Propolos - The Guide who goes before, Lead us as Dadaphoros into the Light of True Equality Hekate, Rixipyle - Breaker of the Gate - Tear Down the Man Made Barriers that continue to keep BlPOC people subjugated and unable to simply live their lives to their fullest potential. Hekate, Phosphorus - Bring your Light to the Darkness of Police Brutality and Institutional Racism. Let no one hide from the luminous blaze of Your Torches. Kleidoukhos - Keeper of the Keys Unlock our knowledge to do better within ourselves. Reveal o

A Brief Moment of Vulnerability

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My life is a complete 180° from where it was a year ago. A year ago, my long-term live in relationship imploded/exploded and resulted in police action and me having to move within a month. Which I believe I’ve touched on before. What I didn’t touch on is how Important and essential Community is when you are struggling. This last year has been a year of complete and total change for me. From the inside out. When January began, I had a New Years that I don’t quite remember, but nonetheless ended up being incredibly eye-opening into seeing how far my then-current patterns and behaviours had taken me from my intended path. As an unexpected benefit of my “domestic violence” call to the police, (that’s still a strange phrase to be associated with), I was privileged enough to be able to have access to weekly therapy. Which I have gone to consistently. Without therapy I would not have been able to begin the process of unraveling and unpeeling a lot of the damage done in my last relati